This is me - sung to Tubeway Army

I walk real fast,
but sometimes I'm slow to react,
taking a few leaps,
and a few steps back.

I don't feel alone,
got my friends,
but when I'm surrounded,
isolation sets in.

So here I sit,
reading a book to myself,
understanding more,
that I know less and less,
about me, about you.

So off I go,
down the hall,
off and farther down,
down another street.

What you may ask,
is the use of dreams,
if the time of waking,
can't dream.

Time flies

The whose,
and the whys,
and tha,
..., ...;

Tha food,
and the flies,
and tha,
..., ...;

Tha dudes,
and the lies,
and tha,
huh, uhuh;

Too much damn integrity,
no morals when in bed with me,
something someone said to me,
and tha,
and tha;

Loosing comprehension,
staring at gas colors,
on water's tension,
where the fuck,
did all the time go?

Now back to reality,
is it real - whats' inside of me?
Or did it die with you,
so long ago?

Devil's Done

The devil's done sold the secret to seduction,
behind showcases of glass and lights,
that chip on your shoulder might be your handbag,
but don't you look good going out at night.

You know it looks good,
so it must be good,
no mistaking quality when you see it.

You know it looks good,
so it must be good,
your soul waiting for the coin to free it.

Those boots were designed for walking,
on the backs of the poor,
what a shame when they reach out to you for comfort,
you can't see - blinded by lust's allure

You know it looks good,
so it must be good,
no mistaking quality when you see it.

You know it looks good,
so it must be good,
your soul waiting for the coin to free it.

The devil's done sold the recipe to seduction,
to feed our hunger's hungry need,
no time to judge what we've made,
even the devil himself has to feed.

What To Do?

What to do what to do,
when the sheets,
they still smell like you do?

And now,
when I realize,
the days have turned too.
...
years,
sitting looking out the window,
where did the time go.
...
fears,
keeping me inside, yo,
wondering where did the time go.

What to do what to do,
when the pillow,
it still smells like you do?

I know,
clean smelling and still sweaty,
smell of you full and heady.
...
Unknown,
if you even think the same,
view my lusts with disdain.
...
Unforgiven,
I asked and you said yes,
what's left I can't guess.

What to do what to do,
when the past,
it still reminds me of you?

I Never

I never asked you if you loved me,
because I was afraid you'd run away.
I never asked you if you stay with me,
because I never found a way,
to trust you more,
than I trust in fear,
too late to look for more,
now that you're not here.

Ohoh I-e-eye,
saw right through you.
Ohoh I-e-eye,
never knew what to do.

I never know when,
I'm going to do it again.
You never new when,
a little loss was a gain,
to trust you more,
than I trusted fear,
too late to look,
knowing you're not here.

Ohoh I-e-eye,
saw right to you.
Ohoh I-e-eye,
believe you were true.

Ohoh I--eye Never,
no, never, never,
I-e-eye never,
tru-ly be-leiveevd.

Better now that I can,
exist in denial.
Better that then always,
heeding your heartfelt guile,
to trust you more,
than you trusted your self,
to lust once more,
and again hate myself.

Oh-oh I-e-eye-ee,
never believed in fairy tales,
but I-e-eye-ee,
dreamed you'd fight for me,
tooth and nail,
oh-oh Eye-EE,
never knew that I needed you,
and Eye-ee, ne-eh-ver...

Lone Lie Ness

Lone-ly-ness

Spending time, in the company of stra-ang-gers

Lone-ly-ness

So detached, that you never see the dang-gers

Lone-ly-ness
Hmm uhm hmm hmmum

Lone-lyn-ness

You know it doesn't have to be this way-a-ay

Truth-ful-ness

Lying to yourself, just waiting for the day-a-ay

Self-ish-ness

What you want, what you need, can sometimes be the sa-ay-ame



Could of been, that you were simply wasting ti-igh-ime

Lone-lyn-ness

'cept you know, that you've caught yourself a'lie-ing

Lone-ly-ness

when alone, and the feel-lings make you cry-and

Lone-ly-ness
Hmm uhm hmm hmmum

Lone-lyn-ness

You know it doesn't have to be this way-a-ay

Truth-ful-ness

Lying to yourself, just waiting for the day-a-ay

Self-ish-ness

What you want, what you need, can sometimes be the sa-ay-ame



Now ya' think, on the time before to-day-ay-hay

Lone-lyn-ness
Hmm uhm hmm hmmum

Oppor-tunites lost-, things you wish you'd have say-a-ay'd

Lone-lyn-ness
Hmm uhm hmm hmmum

Lone-lyn-ness

You know it doesn't have to be this way-a-ay

Truth-ful-ness

Lying to yourself, just waiting for the day-a-ay

Self-ish-ness

What you want, what you need, can sometimes be the sa-ay-ame

Lone-lyn-ness

You know it doesn't have to be this way-a-ay

Truth-ful-ness

Lying to yourself, just waiting for the day-a-ay

Self-ish-ness

What you want, what you need, can sometimes be the sa-ay-ame

Elements

Like a shining star,
base elements,
sparkle and shine,
because for a time it's mine.

And when tha sky-igh
sig-ighs
and lets, tha tears, fall dow_a_wn

Will the ear-rth
Bur-urst
Forth with love, now that heavens come t'ground?

And fire, fire is there,
waiting for the wind,
washed with tear's waters,
ground to begin.

And when tha sky-igh
sig-ighs
and lets, tha tears, fall dow_a_wn

Will the ear-rth
Bur-urst
Forth with love, now that heavens come t'ground?

Salt of the earth,
mixed with tears,
Seas created,
in but a few short years.

And when tha sky-igh
sig-ighs
and lets, tha tears, fall dow_a_wn

Will the ear-rth
Bur-urst
Forth with love, now that heavens come t'ground?

Caresses of wind,
remembering the past,
but you can't hold on.
The touch never lasts.

And when tha sky-igh
sig-ighs
and lets, tha tears, fall dow_a_wn

Will the ear-rth
Bur-urst
Forth with love, now that heavens come t'ground?

How many miles,
will I go by myself?
How will I smile,
when I don't know anything else?

And when tha sky-igh
sig-ighs
and lets, tha tears, fall dow_a_wn

Will the ear-rth
Bur-urst
Forth with love, now that you've come t'ground?

Today I...

Today I remember,
and I miss you.

Today I remember,
when I'd kiss you.

Today I remember,
then the memories seem few.

Today I remember,
the good memories of you.
_

I Hurt Myself Today

Torn at like a piece of meat,
snarling mouths, hands, and teeth,
I am not a man, but a side of beef,
take it now, come have a piece.

I don't care, no morals guide me,
no thought beyond, having you inside me,
no regrets, free ride, no fee,
I give it up, with reckless glee.

Empty now, just a hole,
a piece of meat, without a soul,
rounded ass and rigid pole,
orgasm is my only goal.

No thought beyond, having you inside me,
I don't care, no morals guide me,
no regrets, free ride, no fee,
I give it up, with reckless glee.

Filthy whore, nasty pig,
I feign disdain to your dig,
your dirty talk make me hot,
sexual repartee is all I've got.

No thought beyond, having you inside me,
no regrets, free ride, no fee,
I don't care, no morals guide me,
I give it up, with reckless glee.

In search of the time before,
when love stood where now is the whore,
when that was I'm no longer sure,
I've closed those thoughts to endure.

No thought beyond, having you inside me,
no regrets, free ride, no fee,
I give it up, with reckless glee,
I don't care, no morals guide me.

'bout Half Right

Thought I'd hold your hand,
as you grow old,
figure it all out,
let time unfold,
well...
seems I was
'bout half right.

Now time presses on,
no respect for emotions,
no consideration,
no chance for devotion,
well...
seems I was
'bout half right.

Memories fall from sleep,
so bittersweet,
least those memories,
are mine to keep,
well...
seems I was,
'bout half right

Got to go,
can't stay and dream,
a new day,
who knows what that'll bring,
oh...
seems I was,
'bout half right.

Who Am I?

Who am I?
But someone you used to know,
Now sitting here alone.
No love that I had shown,
Helps now that you are gone.
The seed of past are sown,
No happy us at home.

Who am I?
But no, one, now.
Who am I?
But lone, ly, now.
Who am I?
Half of who, I, was.
Who am I?
Life now, placed, on pause.

Who am I?
Past strong with sense of self,
Now sorry for myself,
Sick where once was health,
A pauper in search of wealth.
In and of itself,
commentary on my mental health.

Cover Hog

Missing the aggravation,
The story in dedication,
dreams and imagination,
of cover hog and damnation.

Cover hog, alarms too early,
Drunken tears, being surly,
Simple dreams of being worldly,
Waking cold and being surly.

Dreams of someone with to argue,
Like those who love allows and can do,
Love strong so no gripe can subdue,
Cover hog I speak of you.

Love so drawn out it bent over time,
Expressions unmentioned till written in rhyme,
Cover hog cajoled in love sublime,
Season go, another year's bell toll and chime.

Happy memories of waking beside you still,
Warm connection when nights are chill,
Cover hog have you the will,
To laugh to cry to tremble and feel?

I was there and had never knew,
what joy it was to be with you,
never did I ever have to choose,
cover hog I was ever true.

Warm blankets wrapped in gentle sleep,
cold I lay, tired I weep,
no place to rest no bed so neat,
sans dream of cover hogs I keep.

Over Joy

I was overjoyed to be your man.
Felt such joy,
in just holding your hand.
Now I'm over joy,
again.

I was overjoyed,
gave you all my love,
now I'm over joy,
again.

Are you happy,
'cause when I hear from you,
you only seem angry,
I don't know what to do,
again.

I was overjoyed,
gave you all my love,
now I'm over joy,
again.

Don't want to exchange mad words anymore,
don't want to be sad anymore,
rather walk away,
than keep this game in play.

I was overjoyed,
gave you all my love,
now I'm over joy,
again.

Pick my words apart,
choose one that offends,
your words like poison darts,
poisoning the joy again.

I was overjoyed,
gave you all my love,
now I'm over joy,
again.

When you stop keeping tabs,
then you'll know how much I love you,
Throwing verbal jabs,
saying things untrue.

I was overjoyed,
gave you all my love,
now I'm over joy,
again.

You shut me down,
can't express what that did to me,
you shut me down,
you didn't believe in me.

I was overjoyed,
gave you all my love,
now I'm over joy,
again.

I got a signal,
on my phone,
but no signal,
that you're alone.

I was overjoyed,
gave you all my love,
now I'm over joy,
again.

Again, again, I'm over joy,
Didn't give up, still have love,
going to keep writing my story,
until overjoyed in love.

I was overjoyed,
gave you all my love,
now I'm over joy,
again.

My Heart Upon Your Sleeve

I was feeling suicidal,
but only just a bit,
only wanted to kill myself a little,
so I thought I'd bleed; heart on my sleeve; this is it.

Don't want to belong to someone else,
thought I could belong to you,
so now I tell the world how I've felt,
and thought they felt it too.

so I thought I'd bleed; heart on your sleeve; this is it.

Better my diary,
left out for all to see,
than to wear,
my heart upon your sleeve.

so I thought I'd bleed; heart on your sleeve; this is it.

Tired of hinting at,
what you don't get,
going to put what i wrote,
into full effect.

Don't want to belong to someone else,
thought I could belong to you,
so now I tell the world how I've felt,
and thought they felt it too.

so I thought I'd bleed; heart on your sleeve; this is it.

Sorry I'm getting dizzy,
didn't mean to bleed on your sleeve,
just let me sit; down a bit,
rest and then I'll leave.

Now where are my belongings?
Oh I think I left them behind!
I seem to be somewhat dizzy,
I know I've lost my mind.

So I though I'd leave,
or was that bleed?
I can't find my heart,
behind your sleeves.

so I thought I'd bleed; heart on your sleeve; this is it.

Don't want to belong to someone else,
thought I could belong to you,
so now I tell the world how I've felt,
and thought they felt it too.

Slowly now,
I've lost too much,
I need a steady hand,
that'll support me.

When you saw blood,
You thought it was mine,
still beating heart,
but there isn't much time.

so I thought I'd bleed; heart on my sleeve; this is it.

Dumbass

I just want to know,
before I go,
are you happy?

I just want to know,
before I go,
and disappear.

Did you care?
Was love there?
Just want to know,
how you plan to live without me.

Just want to know,
because I don't know,
and so,
I ask you.

Just want to know,
how you forget me,
so easily?

WIP

When the horoscope,
seems to know,
more about my life,
than I do.

Walking in the snow,
cold lets you know,
you alone.

Breathing in the cold,
breathing alone,
alone I know.

When the horoscope,
seems to know,
more about my life,
than I do.

Seeing the old graduate,
makes me,
hopeful it isn't too late.

Unfocused purpose,
tell a man what his worth is,
how old are you now?

When the horoscope,
seems to know,
more about my life,
than I do.

When the horoscope,
seems to know,
more about my life,
than I do.

You know that classic stereotype,
yeah, if I'm guessing right,
you'd be the cute one.

The real attractive one,
that lives for fun,
and throws them away.

When the horoscope,
seems to know,
more about my life,
than I do.

And I'm heartbroken,
mourning for nothing,
nothing now.

Still time for me to educate,
and perhaps graduate,
learn from this.

When the horoscope,
seems to know,
more about my life,
than I do.

Don't want to work no more.
Don't want to get out of bed.
Don't need no horoscope.
Don't need to know.
No, no tomorrows today.
I know tomorrows' today.

Come Back

Don't ask me to turn around,
and come back,
when I just left,
and my eyes are still wet.

Don't need no witness,
to remind me of feelings,
I'm trying to repress.

I make it look easy I know,
smiling and hugs so,
you'll never know,
I miss you so.

So don't ask me,
to turn around,
I'm on my way,
away from you.

Excuses form,
I'm running late,
that'll do,
I've got a date,
perhaps I'll get a dig in too.

So don't ask me,
to turn around,
I'm on my way,
away from you.

Don't ask me to turn around,
and come back,
when I just left,
and my eyes are still wet.

When will he ask me,
to turn around,
and he'll come back,
to what he left,
and make me still,
and eyes still wet?

Little Known Fact

Little known fact,
I've got some news,
in case you didn't know,
Superman sleeps in the nude.

Man of steel,
likes the feel of silk,
terry-cloth robes,
and all that ilk.

Little know fact,
I've got some news,
in case you didn't know,
Superman sleeps in the nude.

Who'd of thought,
bullets bouncin' off,
he's such a softy
for something soft?

Little know fact,
I've got some news,
in case you didn't know,
Superman sleeps in the nude.

Hey, here's some news,
in case you didn't know,
he is just a dude,
who likes comfortable shoes.

Little know fact,
I've got some news,
in case you didn't know,
Superman sleeps in the nude.

Anvil

I guess that fantasy is getting old,
my mind believes but my body knows,
so keep my dreams sheltered from the cold,
a toast that my strength will hold

here here! drink up! be merry!
the time has come,
to forget and bury,
those silly ideas,
from a younger time,
age will temper,
the sharpest mind,
and bend the heart,
to its will,
more practical,
then hope, and still,
hope beats on,
strikes cold iron,
awaiting loves heat return,
lone sound rings out,
in a lone place,
no one else can hear,
tears,
falling like the hammer,
working to make,
something real,
out of will,
and still...

Again

There it is again,
the pain, the pain,
there, see it for yourself,
the same, the same,
there it is again,
that familiar feeling,
washing over me,
again.

Saw you run and hide,
saw you just the same,
Saw you anyway,
the shame, the shame,
there it is again,
that familiar feeling,
washing over me,
again, again.

guess you're better off,
not trying, letting go,
guess my head is soft,
trying, not letting go,
there it is again,
that familiar feeling,
something I'm not hearing,
visions without seeing,
again.