I'm With You

Even though I don't know where you are,
I'm there with you.
Even though you don't know where I am,
I'm there with you.
Even though you can't speak to me,
I'm there with you.
Even though I want so desperately to speak to you,
I'm there with you.
Even though I wonder if you care,
I'm there with you.
Even though you wonder if I care,
I'm there with you.
Even though I think of you when I'm sad,
It is because it makes me happy,
Even though you didn't know these things,
I'm with you.

Now now

Now,
miles away from where I was,
weeks away from where I was,
with due consideration,
no celebration,
but realization,
all that distance,
all that time,
still the same,
now.

Ergo Ego

This wonderful experience,
based on you,
it was me,
I believe.

Not who I was,
not who I am,
all the same,
It is good to know.

I was happy,
I am happy,
I will be happy,
happy ego doesn't exist.

Today I...

Today I hate you,
having to do it for myself,
baby sick and I have to work,
have to do it by myself.

Today I hate you,
awaking all alone,
ecstasy by myself,
have to do it by myself.

Today I hate you,
up early to make the time,
got to get into work,
have to do it by myself.

Today I hate you,
no kisses, no hugs, no love,
because no one needs me,
have to do it by myself.

Don't Know No

Don't want to hear about,
your new friends,
as I used to be,
one of them.

Don't want to know about,
your troubles,
since I became,
one of them.

Can't have sinner without sin,
or laughter without the fool,
now I just have lovers without the love,
empty memories of you.

Don't want to know, no.
Don't want to know.
Don't want to know,
where your heart now goes.

Don't want to know about,
the fun you've been having,
can't be glad for you just yet,
my heart beats on but I'm saddened.

Don't want to forget,
I met you when I was alone,
tried my best to put you first,
myself is all I'd ever known.

Can't stay and be happy,
cut your losses and be strong,
too much to hope,
you'll ever admit you're wrong.

Don't want to know, no.
Don't want to know.
Don't want to know,
where your heart now goes.

What Will You Do Now?

Knowing death is certain,
knowing the time of death is uncertain,
what will you do now?

A Moment Friend...

A moment,
if you please,
a moment,
all the ego needs,
a moment,
friend,
a moment,
weekend message,
a moment,
somehow lessoned,
unshared,
ego turns inward,
for a moment,
is no friend.

Temptation

Simple banter,
shared expression,
pleasant distraction,
temptation,
in an offer,
simple,
shared,
pleasant,
tempting.

Close Enough

Matched colors,
happenstance,
shirts,
from the same time,
and place,
close enough,
to humor me,
the mere idea,
unashamed,
and on purpose,
perhaps not,
but I'll pretend.

Our Song?

Looking for the key,
the little things.

Sentimental pressure points,
where the balance is tipped,
pivot point,
for a life together.

If we could find a way,
walk a mile,
in my shoes,
I walk the line,
got my own song,
others sang it for me,
before me,
but it was my song,
maybe.

Wanting

Wanting,
to bury myself in you.

Restraint,
with a hug and a kiss,
makes the longing,
sweet torture,
gathered,
for one day,
when I,
can vent my release.

Pains me

Pains me to see you,
pains me to leave you,
each visit,
self-inflicted,
less painful,
knowing,
I've survived before,
makes it easier,
to believe,
I can,
do it again.

Realizing

Realizing,
how you were afraid,
to speak your mind,

how many times,
did you speak,
to others of it?

Of your plans,
to confront me,

and never do so,

you left,
unhappy,

because,
you never tried.

Unrecognized Longing

Do you miss,
those who went before you?
Remember them,
and the tale they tell.

Contrasting,
You are still able,
to love.

Ghosts longing,
for the chances,
you may never take.

Nether whispers,
suggest your fate.

Warnings,
to live,
to take,
take and give,
mistake,
and forgive.

These things,
they call to you.

Breathe,
you can breathe,
play the violin,
before they play it,
for you.

Spread your arms,
welcome life!

Let your life,
trumpet loudly!

Herald your death,
as a welcome rest!

May the years seem long,
before your final notes,
are authored.

Matched set

Words,
like in a dream,
easily forgotten.
What time is it,
time to move on.

No longer lonely,
but waking alone,
time to change,
repair,
that which is broken,
fix,
myself up.

For we had,
a matching set,
of two.
Now you have you,
and I have I,
one each.
Matching pillows.

Hold tight,
dear pillow,
supplicant,
for a king sized bed,
for a place to lie my head,
for rest,
perchance to dream,
to hope,
for someone,
to make the bed,
with me,
still in it.

The Way

The coward's way,
too hard,
so just give up.

The fool's way,
not remembering,
tricked again.

The callous way,
not caring,
not worth being cared for.

The thinker's way,
not knowing,
judging they are right.

The lover's way,
understanding
the coward,
forgiving
the fool,
careing
for the unworthy,
faith
without judgement.

Do. You.

Do you remember the bed,
When it was warm,
Do you?

Do you remember my arms,
Still warm.
Do you?

Do you remember,
I still love you,
Do you?

Do,
You remember?
My heart is still warm.
Do.
You!

Yours For the asking,
Do.

Empty picture frame

Got an empty picture frame,
which you can see,
I use to keep a picture,
of someone that meant,
the world to me.

Got an empty picture frame,
you've noticed, I see,
what you may have never known,
its because,
I keep that picture with me.

Folded lines,
don't detract,
from the times,
or memories.
Sad loneliness,
obscures the viewing,
much more than that.

Got an empty picture frame,
got no one to honor,
got an empty heart,
much to my horror.

Got a chocolate candy bar,
keep it just in case,
it tempts me,
as i wait for you,
as the picture frame,
awaits.

Who did you give your time to?

Where did you spend your time?
Where did you waste your days?
Did you not know of your crime?
Not knowing to give what can't be saved.

Time doesn't exist,
but doesn't listen to that,
we don't exist ,
so we exist in fact.

What did you care to try for?
Who did you dare love?
Why didn't you try to forgive?
When did all fall to love?